|
[09 Jan 2005|01:52pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 awake |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Red Hot Chili Peppers "Scar Tissue" |
] |
Take The First Sentence From The First Post Of Each Month Of 2004. That's Your Year In Review
This is from my former journal: jthomicidlmniac
Hi, I'm Casey/Sandy. Hmmm...what can I say about my friend Robyn. Richard and I broke up last week and I'm OK with it. LAYER ONE: The Basics. What Kind Of Stripper Am I? Here's my piercing. I have a cell phone. OK so I haven't updated in awhile. Wow, I haven't updated in a LONG time. All I've really been eating lately are sunflower seeds and I've been drinking a lot of kiwi strawberry juice. Me and Sarah helped bleach my brother's hair. Anyways, so I wrote this once, but accidentally deleted it.
Nothing too exciting, eh?
|
|
3 scars | hurt me
|
|
| Moving On... |
[05 Jan 2005|10:40am] |
I'm moving on. Don't worry, I'm only moving to a new LJ. Heh, had you going there for a sec, eh? You know every time I try to write sec, I almost always write sex. Oh well. Please, join me as I start a new livejournal. I will be adding each and everyone one of you on my friends list. :)
Ohsweetoleander is my new name.
|
|
1 scar | hurt me
|
|
| Running. |
[04 Jan 2005|01:01am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 confused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
"Innocence" Hootie and the Blowfish |
] |
I want to run away and never look back. I feel as if I've worn out my welcome here in the Capital City. I don't know who I am, I don't think my friends even like me. I have low self-esteem and intense self-hatred. Teenage angst is fun, eh? I don't know. I don't feel like people want me around and I just need to go somewhere else. Somewhere where no one knows me. Somewhere, anywhere but here.
*sigh*
If I have run away, my posts will just stop since I do update somewhat regularly. Those who are dear to my heart will be notified.
|
|
6 scars | hurt me
|
|
| New Years |
[02 Jan 2005|03:40pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 chipper |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
"Somewhere Only We Know" Keane |
] |
Well entering 2005 wasn't too bad. I had a fun time ushering in the new year.
On New Years Eve, I went to a party that my friend Alan invited me to. I said yes because I have a crush on Alan. I took Sarah with me because it's always funner with Sarah. Anyways, when we got there, we were introduced to Kevin, a child-like fellow who who wasn't going to drink. He was a nice guy, I intimidated him into falling into some drunk guy. YES! The party slowly fizzled and at about 1:30 we decided to go to Denny's. I love that place. We had some food, Sarah knocked Kevin off of the booth, and I didn't get home until 5 am.
On New Years Day, I woke up at about 3-ish. Me, Sarah, Alan, and Kevin went bowling. It was cool and I'm glad we did. I kicked Kevin's ass the first game, lost to him the second, and he didn't even try the third game. Then we went to Lyon's (for a change), and we got there at 11:15, got our check at like 11:39 and left at about 4:45. We're awesome. We just chitchatted. Alan took a picture of my boobs, Kevin attempted to push Sarah off the booth, but it never worked. We made a concoction and that was fun. Got home at about 5 am again. Yay.
On a side note, my mom got fry sauce from Winco and it's from "Some Dude" in SLC, UT. Yay for fry sauce.
|
|
3 scars | hurt me
|
|
|
[28 Dec 2004|11:05pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 complacent |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Talking to James Brown |
] |
best _____ of the year:
1. party: the after party for a Gnosis show
2. tv show: ??
3. cd: Rilo Kiley "More Adventurous"
4. movie: Napoleon Dynamite
5. song: "Does He Love You?" Rilo Kiley
6. experience: Flashing my breasts downtown
7. concert: ??
8. book: Catch-22 by Joseph Heller
9. month: November
10. day(s): Umm...not so sure on that
worst ____ of the year:
1. party: n/a
2. tv show: every reality show
3. cd: ??
4. movie: The Day After Tomorrow
5. song: Any rap song
6. experience: Mental Hospital
7. concert: ??
8. book: Of Love and Shadows by Isabel Allende
9. month: July
10. day: ??
hopes for 2005:
1. predict something that you think will happen in 2005: I'm going to move, hopefully.
2. what do you hope changes about your country?:
3. what do you hope for yourself?: a hot guy who respects me
4. what do you hope for your family?: I hope flesh-eating diseases descend upon my family
5. what do you hope for your best friend?: I hope she is happy and can become who she wants to be
during 2004:
1. where were you when it began?: I don't know
2. did you stay up?: yep.
3. what was your new year wish?: I don't know
4. how many boy/girlfriends?: 4
5. broke up?: 2
6. have any crushes?: of course
7. care to mention names?: no I do care to mention any names
8. new friends?: James, all the Lambda kids, etc.
9. had to say goodbye?: Nope
10. missed anyone?: Laurie and Katie
11. win anything?: No.
12. best place you went to?: Utah
13. worst place you went to?: Utah
14. happiest moment?: I don't know
15. how was your birthday?: My birthday was weird. I got a tattoo.
16. best present?: Car stereo for Joe.
|
|
hurt me
|
|
| Me |
[27 Dec 2004|07:17pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 weird |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
"Forgiven" Alanis Morissette |
] |
Stolen from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) pretty_dictator
I would like everyone to go down this list and pick ONE from each pair that you think describes me the best. Then copy this and post it in your own journal to see how your friends view you.
dominant or submissive
logical or intuitive
social or loner
kinky or vanilla
cute or sophisticated
kitten or puppy
warm flannel sheets or sleek satin
leader or follower
quiet or talkative
spontaneous or planned
|
|
8 scars | hurt me
|
|
| Christmas! |
[26 Dec 2004|09:07am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
cheerful |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
"Innocent" Our Lady Peace |
] |
Christmas was good to me.
I'll just list off the things I recieved:
1) Car Stereo for Joe. Joe deserves it, taking me everywhere all the time without an oil change. Good Joe.
2) Hello Kitty Pajamas. They're sooo cute and my dad picked them out. I thought that was odd, my dad.
3) 4 Gift Certificates. Starbucks ($15), Barnes and Noble ($25), ARCO ($50), and Kohl's ($75). I like gift certificates. I just realized that I type them in order of how much I can spend with them. Nifty.
4) Pink Poncho thing. It's cute, I like it.
5) Pink and Black purse. It's really weird looking, but I like it. Maybe I would have never bought it for myself, but it's nice and I love the handles.
6) Candy. Yummy for my TUMMY.
7) Pink Zip-Up Sweatshirt.
8) Green, Gray, and Yellow Striped Sweater. I actually like this one. It came with it's own scarf but i'll never wear together, I don't know why.
9) Blue fuzzy socks. They're really warm!
10) A pair of Jeans. Yay.
11) Glorious Appearing, the last book in the Left Behind series. I've been waiting for this since it came out. Came from a most unlikely source, my ex-boyfriend Marcus.
12) Civilizations 3: Expansion Pack. It's coming soon, my parents couldn't find it in stores ANYWHERE!
13) Pearl Necklace with the Ties, and Pearl Bracelet. My grandma isn't getting too bad with gifts anymore.
14) A Shirt that says "I <3 80's" but the heart is the bottom of a guitar.
15) Two sets of earrings. One is pink stars at the end of a little chain. The other, circle with hearts in the them. They're AWESOME.
15) Astrobabe, book on Astrology. I liked it, It almost creeped me out with how true it is. Whoa.
16) Leopard print pillow. It's one of those beany-softy kinds. I can't describe it, but it's pretty nifty.
17) Purple Hair Dye for Highlights. Being put on the shelf for now until I get a job. My mom wanted me to dye it a "normal" color. So right now my hair is Chocolate Cherry. It looks nice I think.
So this Christmas I got 17 things I actually like and nothing I hated. YAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!
That's it. I'm sitting here in my hello kitty pajamas and blue fuzzy socks typing this up. I actually slept in pajamas for once. Not that you all need to know this but I typically sleep in a tank top and my underwear. So it was unusual for me. Anyhow, I gotta go, my mom wants to go to Kohl's because they're have a huge sale and we all got money to go there. Yay for Grandma Marion in Michigan for getting Kohl's. Usually it's Mervyns but ever since we got Kohl's, it's been Kohl's. Heh. Later peeps!
PS. I LOVE YOU SARAH! In a strictly platonic-family sort of way. If you leave for Utah and never come back, I'd be sad. I'd visit you, also giving me an excuse to visit James. Yeah yeah, you don't like James but he keeps talking to me nowadays and I like the arguements.
*is magically 10 inches taller*
*HUGS*
*short again*
Oh, Johnny wishes he was famous
Spends his time alone in the basement
With Lennon and Cobain and
A guitar and a stereo
And while he wishes he could escape this
But it all seems so contagious
Not to be yourself and faceless
And a song that has no soul
I remember feeling low
I remember losing hope
And I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped
We are, we are all innocent
We are all innocent
We are, we are...
We are, we are all innocent
We are all innocent
We are, we are...
Tina's losing faith in what she knows
Hates her music
Hates all of her clothes
Thinks of surgery and a new nose
Every calorie is a war
And while she wishes she was a dancer
And that she'd never heard of cancer
She wishes God would give her some answers
And make her feel beautiful
I remember feeling low
I remember losing hope
I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped
We are, we are all innocent
We are all innocent
We are, we are...
We are, we are all innocent
We are all innocent
We are, we are...
One day, you'll have to let it go
You'll have to let it go
No...
One day, you'll stand up on your own
You'll stand up on your own
Remember losing hope
Remember feeling low
Remember all the feelings and the day they stopped
We are, we are all innocent
We are all innocent
We are, we are...
We are, we are all innocent
We are all innocent
We are, we are...
We are (one day), we are all innocent
We are all innocent (you'll have to let it go)
We are, we are (you'll have to let it go, no..)
We are (one day), we are all innocent
We are, we are (you'll stand up on your own)
We are, we are all innocent (you'll stand up on your own..)
We are, we are all innocent
|
|
1 scar | hurt me
|
|
| 40 Pounds |
[25 Dec 2004|10:35am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 crazy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
"Wake Me Up Before You Go Go" Wham! |
] |
So...I need to lose around 40 pounds, and this will probably begin soon after the Christmas dinner at my house. I don't know, I want to be skinny and cute. I've gotten mixed reactions to this. It's not necessarily what other people think about me (though guys due tend to prefer the skinny cute girls), but what I think about myself. Due to various reasons, I have immense self-hatred and giant insecurities. Don't worry, I'm going to do it the normal way, exercise and eat better. No anorexia (or bulimia) for me, that's my mom's thing. My ideal weight would be about 120. That would be awesome, not TOO skinny, but cute. I'm not sure how that will work out. I hope I have the motivation and the dedication to stick to some sort of exercise plan. *sigh* I hate/love thinking about this. It's odd. Anyways, I'm going to see "Meet the Fockers" with my family. Later.
Fact of the Day: The average Human bladder can hold 13 ounces of liquid
Quote of the Day: "Drama is life with the dull bits cut out" - Alfred Hitchcock
|
|
2 scars | hurt me
|
|
| Survey |
[18 Dec 2004|03:14pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 blah |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
"Give In" Sister Hazel |
] |
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Cassandra
2. Casey
3. Case
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. yossarianlives61
2. jthomicidlmniac
3. smallfry55 (the 6th grade, yo)
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My intelligence
2. My breasts
3. My tattoo
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My weight
2. My depression
3. My gallbladder (bastard)
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Japanese
2. German
3. French-Canadian
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Abandonment
2. Public Speaking
3. My own suicidal thoughts
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Clean undergarments
2. Shower
3. The consumption of diet pop
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Jeans
2. Jean Jacket
3. Pink Sweater with green
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists(at the moment)):
1. Rilo Kiley
2. Sister Hazel
3. Everclear
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. "Round Here" by Counting Crows (I have to agree with Ms. Sarah)
2. "Unemployed Boyfriend" by Everclear
3. "Open Wounds" Skillet
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Road trip across the country with Katie and Laurie. We keep saying we'll do it but we never do.
2. Getting a job
3. Conditional: depending on #2, getting my own place in Downtown Sac.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Mutual attraction
2. Cuddling
3. A Best Friend (more agreeing with Ms. Sarah)
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I want to kill myself
2. I have a tattoo
3. I've had sex
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Nice hair
2. Being taller
3. Nice nose
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO: (definitely and necessary)
1. Be completely happy
2. Get a boyfriend
3. The Moon Walk
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Being a loser?
2. Reading
3. Shopping with Katie and Laurie (that's a hobby right?) Heh.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Yeah being relatively skinny and attractive
2. I want to have a life
3. Put some clothes on (I got out of the shower and I'm in my robe)
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. High School History Teacher
2. High School History Teacher
3. High School History Teacher (I'm not considering anything else)
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Michigan
2. Amsterdam
3. New Orleans
THREE KID'S NAMES
1. Alexander
2. Lucy
3. Eryn
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Keep the rest of my organs
2. Be Happy
3. To love and be loved in return yadda yadda yadda
|
|
3 scars | hurt me
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
